Life Update: The Millennial Struggle

Wow, I can’t believe it has been 7 months since I’ve updated my blog. I won’t even sit here and give you any explanations because I have done that way too many times on here. All I can say is I had a lot going on and I still do. I am at a crossroads in my life and I know that sounds crazy to some of you, since I am only 26, but let me explain.

I will start from the beginning. As a little girl I never really “fit in” although I really tried to all throughout Elementary, Middle and High School. I was not a loser but I was never really popular either. Does that even matter in the real world you ask? I would like to say no, but it does. Growing up wasn’t as bad outside of school because technology wasn’t what it is today so I could live my life however I wanted when I wasn’t in school, there was no one to impress and that was refreshing. As I got older technology and social media became huge. I have always aspired to do amazing things, I’ve always been a dreamer and a believer that great things are possible if you work hard. So like any driven 18 year old, I did what was expected of me. I went to college (originally for criminal justice but then switched to communications/journalism, but that’s a whole other story for another day). I had my next five years planned out and I knew exactly what I wanted and how I was going to get there. You know the normal path, you go to college, get your degree, and then you score your dream job and live the happiest most fulfilling life, right? Wrong.

Unfortunately, I like most people my age, had way too many bumps in the road while trying to achieve my five year plan. When switching schools, I had issues with my GPA, which was my fault but still. It shouldn’t be that difficult to accept your mistakes and want to do better. I knew I messed up at John Jay because I didn’t want to be there, so I decided to go to a community college in my hometown,  get my GPA up and obtain an associates degree in a major that actually interested me, then transfer to a 4-year school and graduate with my bachelors in that same major, get the dream job and live my life the way I envisioned. Seems like an easy way to get back on track with my goals right? Wrong.

In other words, nothing went as planned. Or should I say nothing is GOING as planned. I finally graduated with a bachelors degree in broadcasting and media communications. Originally when I first started my communications/journalism degree the dream was to work for a network like E! and become an entertainment reporter for shows like E!News. What I didn’t expect or see coming was that social media was going to change everything in the next few years.

You see, journalism has become pretty obsolete because everyone is a journalist now. All you need is a social media platform, a cell phone or camera and a following. BAM you are now an influencer and can work with major networks, magazines and corporations. So what happens to those that worked so hard for their degrees and are now applying for these jobs. They don’t get looked at. I have spent the last few months applying to every broadcasting/journalism/social media job you can possibly imagine and haven’t received one call back. I blame it partially on the fact that I was not privileged and had to work while going to school, therefore limiting my time for internships and experience in my field, but I also blame society and technology.

I have kept my Youtube channel and this blog up and running for years and I have not been able to grow a large following. I could blame it on consistency or on the fact that I don’t have blonde hair and blue eyes but what does that do for me? nothing but make things worse.

The thing is, this is all a popularity contest. Millennials are all going to college now which makes things more competitive because everyone has a degree now. We also live more expensive lives than people did back then which means, most Millennials are probably working while going to school, therefore limiting their chances of doing an internship or gaining any real world experience in their field because let’s face it, internships in today’s world are totally different than back then. Now they are mostly full time and unpaid (but realistically, unless you have supportive parents who can afford to pay for all of your things, who can really do a full time UNPAID internship?  I know I couldn’t) which, leaves very little room for anyone to get their foot in the door. So now not only are the older people in these positions not leaving, which means there are less opportunities, but then we have the issue of so many people with degrees applying, unrealistic internship and experience opportunities, and let’s not forget that every time you apply to an entry level position they want 5 years of experience in that field. The problem with that is that, the 5 years they want experience, I was spending trying to actually obtain the bachelor’s degree that they wanted so bad. So you tell me, how I’m supposed to obtain this dream job now?

Unfortunately, this is the struggle most people my age are facing in today’s society and it has taken a toll on me. That is one of the reasons why I stopped blogging, barely post on Youtube anymore, I have been in a weird funk that just makes me feel like my dream job is impossible to reach. Does this mean I’m completely giving up?Never. I don’t give up, it’s just not in me. But I wanted to let all of you know that are probably going through the same thing, that it is going to be ok. Someone at some point has to give you a chance. If not, no one would be successful. So stay strong, keep your head up and keep on pushing.

I decided that blogging was the best thing to do at this moment because it is way less stressful than youtube. also less competitive. I don’t have to worry about fitting in with my blog because I get to write about my thoughts and my feelings and no one can compare them to anyone else’s blog.

With that said, I plan on continuing this blog but making it more lifestyle rather than beauty. I have said this in the past where I wanted to expand my blog but now I am actually taking an initiative. I just wanted to let those of you who come here for beauty know that you will definitely be seeing more posts like this and more life posts in general rather than beauty. I want this blog to represent me at the moment. This means whatever point in my life that I’m at is what I plan on blogging about. I love makeup so of course, beauty will still be a huge part of this blog, but it will definitely be more personal with more stories and more opinions.


Wedding Planning: How I Stay Organized

I have two months left until my wedding! I can’t believe how fast this time has passed by. Since I am almost nearing the end of my wedding planning, I wanted to let you guys know how I stayed organized. Organization is key to life for me, I feel that when you are organized there is no reason for stress. That goes for planning events and life in general. If you can keep yourself and your surroundings as organized as possible, I guarantee it will make life so much easier!

I also show you guys sneak peeks of my save the dates & my wedding invites so definitely watch this video if you want to see!

Where Have I Been!? Life Update

I know I have been gone for quite a while. Well, let me explain.

I don’t like to make excuses for being absent from my blog, youtube, or social media in general because at the end of the day I choose to make certain things a priority and this blog, unfortunately, has not been one of them. When I first started my blog, I wanted to create an outlet where, if I wasn’t in the mood to film a Youtube video, I could come to my blog and just write about it. It ended up making things stressful because I felt that I was only posting the same things I was making videos about. After continuously doing that, writing these posts started to feel like a chore and I wasn’t into it. I didn’t know what else to write about, and it seemed like I never had the time to create more content. So, I gave myself a little (very long) break.

I never want to feel discouraged or forced to do something and that is why taking a break from my blog was the best decision. I was able to focus on my Youtube channel a little more and I finally hit 1,000 Subscribers!!! — I do want to thank all of you who not only follow my blog but also subscribed and watch my Youtube videos because without you, 1,000 subbies wouldn’t have been possible. I know it seems minuscule in comparison to other Youtubers  but to me, it is a huge deal. It took a very long time to get to this place and I don’t plan on stopping. I want to grow my channel and my blog, as well as my other social media platforms because I truly love doing this.

On top of focusing on my Youtube, I was able to focus more on school too. I am finally one semester away from graduation! Yayyyy. For those of you who don’t know, my college journey has been a crazy one (possible video or blog idea?). There were times where I felt like a failure and didn’t think I would ever have the opportunity to finish my education, so the fact that I am one semester away from graduation is such a blessing. I can’t wait to finish school, so that I can have some more free time to do the things that I love, including putting more focus into this blog.

I’ve also been planning my wedding as you all know, I got engaged last October and am planning a wedding for this September. I have done a few videos on my wedding planning process but overall, I planned everything so quickly that I didn’t really have much to talk about in videos. I plan on doing an update filling you guys in on what I have planned so far (which is basically everything, but ya know, who doesn’t love wedding videos?).

So that’s pretty much what has been going on in my life right now that has been keeping me so busy. I hope that you guys are still interested in my blog because now that I am back, I have so many ideas brewing.

I want this blog to be more than just beauty because my Youtube is mostly about beauty at the moment (eventually, I want to dive into lifestyle and fashion on there too, but that’s another story and blog post). In this blog, I want to be able to share my opinions on topics, no matter what the topic is. I want to be able to share my travels with you guys, the books I read, and just daily tips and tricks, recipe’s, etc. Anything that comes to mind that I think is a part of me and my life, I want to share with you guys. I want this blog to be more than just a beauty blog. I guess what I am saying is, I want this blog to be more about my lifestyle. I want to open up more with you guys and I want you to get to know who I am in all aspects of my life.

I am excited for this new journey and the changes that I plan on making to my blog because I have been looking forward to this for a while. Keep an eye out for changes coming in the next few months and also, I hope that you stick with me and enjoy my new posts! If you have any ideas of what type of blog posts you would like to see definitely leave me some comments below and let me know what you want to see! I love you guys, thank you for all your support and for sticking with my even when I am not giving you my best. I appreciate all of your support and I hope we can continue on this journey together.

xo, Jess

Will You Be My Bridesmaid? DIY Bridesmaid Boxes

For my wedding series I decided to film what I did to ask my girls if they would like to be a part of my wedding. I made DIY Boxes full of goodies for each one of my bridesmaids. They all loved it and said yes! If you are planning your wedding, let me know what you did to ask your bridesmaids to be a part of your wedding. I hope this video was fun and helpful as well.

Please don’t forget to subscribe and thumbs up the video if you found it helpful and fun!

I’m Engaged! Our Proposal Story

I know I am posting this a little late but on October 5th, 2015 I was proposed to at the top of the Eiffel Tower! It was literally a dream come true and I am so excited for the wedding planning process and to be with my Fiancé forever and ever! I talked about the entire proposal and how it all happened in my video down below so make sure to watch it so you guys know the details!

Also, I am thinking about making this into a series, so give me ideas of what kind of wedding videos you would like to see. I hope you guys enjoy this video and are excited as I am to join me on this wedding journey.




xo, Jess

The Power of Makeup

When I was younger, confidence was something I knew nothing about. I looked up to my family members who mostly consisted of women, and thought that they were so beautiful and that I could never compare. As the years went by, I struggled with my self-esteem and confidence all throughout Middle school and High school. Although it may have seemed like I was a happy-go-lucky teenager, behind closed doors I was really struggling to find myself. Eventually, I started watching YouTube videos and would see girls applying their own makeup and looking so confident while doing it. I began to play with makeup myself and liked the way it made me feel.

Makeup was a way out for me. It was the blanket that covered all of my insecurities for a very long time. It got so bad that I would never leave the house without it on. I ONLY felt comfortable with myself when I had makeup on.

As I got older, through many meltdowns and mental breakdowns, I finally became stronger. I started seeing myself in a different light and I knew that in order for me to be successful and actually make a difference in my life, I was going to have to change something. I wanted to be happy and at that moment I knew what had to change. I started watching many self-help and inspiring Youtube videos, I would go to my local bookstore and for hours read self-help books, and eventually I saw small changes in me.

Now, I can proudly say that although I have my off days, I am more confident than I have ever been. Makeup is no longer necessary for me. I wear it because I love it and because I enjoy it, NOT because I need it to feel comfortable anymore.

I hope that this inspires you all to be confident with or without makeup. We all have struggles and we all go through hard times, but never forget that the real beauty comes from the person you are within.

My LASIK Eye Surgery Story

Today’s post is a little different than most of my other posts because it’s a little personal and informative. If you’ve watched any of my recent videos you probably know that I was in the process of getting LASIK surgery done. Well, I finally did! Guys, it is the best decision I have ever made and anyone who tells me different can just crawl in a hole 🙂

I wanted to make a video for you guys pretty much describing the process through my view because I had so many people curious about how it actually worked. It is a pretty long video but I tried to be as informative as possible. If you have any questions feel free to leave them below and I will try to answer them as best I can.

*Keep in mind, everyone is different and has different eye types. This is solely MY experience, I cannot guarantee the same for you but at least you know what to look forward to. Right?